and we try to remember our alibis

shawn: lol i forgot to send this song to you the day before your enlistment… i make it a point to send it to my friends
wee: i have a bad fewling
song: *bloc party – two more years*
wee: HAHAHAHAHA

ahhhh well. okay i guess i’m feeling better; i hope that’s not just because i’m at home.

two more years
bloc party

in two more years, my sweetheart, we will see another view
such longing for the past for such completion
what was once golden has now turned a shade of grey
i’ve become crueler in your presence

they say: “be brave, there’s a right way and a wrong way”
this pain won’t last forever, this pain won’t last forever

two more years, there’s only two more years
two more years, there’s only two more years
two more years so hold on

you’ve cried enough this lifetime, my beloved polar bear
tears to fill a sea to drown a beacon
to start anew all over, remove those scars from your arms
to start anew all over more enlightened

i know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
this pain won’t last forever, this pain won’t last forever

two more years…

you don’t need to find answers for questions never asked of you
you don’t need to find answers

dead weights, balloons
drag me to you
dead weights, balloons
to sleep in your arms

i’ve become crueler since i met you
i’ve become rougher, this world is killing me

and we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
and we try to remember our alibis
we tell lies to our parents, we hide in their rooms
we bury our secrets in the garden
of course we could never make this love last
i said of course we could never make this love last
the only love we know is love for ourselves
we bury our secrets in the garden

with an aching in my heart,

at least i’ll be coming back next weekend.
right now i’m running through all the wise maxims and encouraging words etc, etc and trying hard not to feel too shitty.

from BMTC 1 CO:
the only easy day was yesterday.

from US navy seal-trained 1WO:
everything, no matter how tough, has an end.

my favourite, from (SURPRISE) my dad:
patience, endurance, tolerance.

and i can’t remember the source for this one, although i think there’s more than one:
knnbccb !

the fury of a thousand suns !

re: PES status
jeff: *makes letter C with hands and body a la YMCA*
wee: grrr YMCA
shawn: ah but for you it is
shawn: Why Am I Not C But A
wee: D:
all: LOLROFL

well. i suppose being a recce trooper will be the closest thing i get to becoming a superspecialawesomeultraspecialsexy NINJA because it’s almost similar only waaaaay less cool so i shall do my best to stay alive.

when i told Very Nice Tekong Sectionmate that we should keep in touch because he’s such a great friend i didn’t really expect to be staying in touch but ah well we’ll be seeing a lot more of each other now that we’re both 3SIR recce troopers. what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right, if we just ignore the fact that the POW training under the recce course actually did kill the unfortunate fellow because his commanders dunked him too hard and drowned him.

~

re: too apt
strange and beautiful: *plays*
aqualung: i’ve been watching your world from afar
kenneth: oh lol yes i see you’re getting into the spirit of things already, recce boy
wee: -______-

seeing as how i had already packed my bag this afternoon and kicked it aside i didn’t think to check but i just realised only five minutes ago that i DID NOT PUT ANY UNDERWEAR IN MY BAG (y) imagine the ignominious end i would have suffered! already it is 2126hrs. my time is ticking away, and before the sun rises tomorrow i’ll be on the miserable, wretched journey to my camp halfway across the world.

my senior jeremy who was posted to guards after his bmt last year has been very understanding and encouraging; after all, he went through the exact same trauma upon seeing his posting.

“whenever the going gets tough,” he said wisely, “remember: they could have sent you to guards.”

well. if he’s made it this far in guards and is going on so well, i see no reason why i can’t finish my course.

OHHH THE TREPIDATION !

whilst daniel has been deprived all the excitement and anticipation of finding out his posting at 1000hrs thanks to the !1337 h4×0rs of some senior whom i’ve never had the privilege of knowing, i have no such special treatment so now here i do sit, my knuckles gone white gripping the edge of my table, my lips quivering as i wait for the clock to toll the bell of my inevitable end.

in lighter news there’s class dinner tonight whee. family movie in the afternoon (mr bean’s holiday lolrofl) after which i must fly swiftly to suntec’s non-existent marche – cedric has no idea that it’s no longer there – and see the expressions of shockhorror on classmateses’ faces as they gaze upon the emptiness that was once marche. i must then rally them and eat quickly before rushing off to watch Adolescent Evolved Shinobi Terrapins with jeffrey jie and shawn!

i only fear that i will not be in the mood to do anything when it is 1000hrs.

~

HOLY SHIT JLOH GOT POSTED TO ARMOUR KTHXBAI

~

holy shit myself, kthxbai. infantry recce trooper at 3SIR; i could visualise my cousin paling upon receiving my sms because he sounded damn worried lol. oh well, goodbye, world.

~

i don’t mean to be a huge loser but seriously forgive me when i say i feel absolutely fucked up about my posting. abso-fucking-lutely fucked up. i would like to say life couldn’t get any worse right now but oh let’s not jinx it.

and i’m telling you i’m not going

so dreamgirls is basically about one girl in a trio of singers taking over everything – now why does that sound so familiar, lol.
symbolically, beyoncé plays the role of the one who rises to stardom because she’s the hottest.
fellow members of her group should have noted with dismay right at the beginning the ominous singularity of the word ‘child’; it is rather tragic if you’re promoting your very own concert and have to tell people in your publicity posters that you’re so-and-so of that group because no one actually knows your face outside of that association.

lol RI just lost to UWC 6-94 in The Arena (which i don’t actually watch). yup, six points to ninety-four points.

now my one-week block leave has suddenly become insufficient with all the things lined up ahead. posting on friday feels rather exciting.

and you’re gonna love me.

where’d you go?

arguably one of the nicest sergeants in existence, freddie gave us his msn contact so i was talking to him about not having to go back for re-24km route march:

freddie: no point coming back for re24
wee: lol as with everything else
freddie: at least it’s meaningful to do 24km as a platoon
wee: yeah i heard re24 is around the tracks, or coastal route or something
freddie: 48 laps around the parade square

OMFGWTFBBQ thank heavens for my MC, and my very nice platoon sergeant.

i have already completed my application to NUS with choice of courses as follows:
1. dentistry
2. law
3. business
4. accountancy

the admission people are going to look at application and go “wtf this guy doesn’t know what he wants” which isn’t exactly too far from the tragic truth but in case they ask about my weird choices i’ll just tell them my dad wanted me to do business which is true. all documents for NUS scholarship applications must be submitted by next saturday so i will have to rush to rj and beg tutor to put together a referee’s report for me and write a personal statement without sounding egotistical. mmmm, all in a day’s work.

in other spectacular news, bird and sandra [rgs rifle girls] went for campus superstar audition today omgzomg. it feels strange to see all these little kids again; i’m inevitably reminded of how old i’ve become but i’m glad they’re growing up as well.

my leetle boy daniel has dumped his glasses in favour of contacts, the vainpot! i am well-known for uncannily close relationships with daniels :D hmmm i forgot to shave.

the contestants! or at least the contestants that i know personally. they did a raffles cheer in front of the channel U team and tried to drag me into it but i was far too swift nyeheheh. well they didn’t get in but that’s alright since they just wanted to have fun and didn’t actually want to get in lol.

i look at past pictures of myself when i still had hair and cannot help but feel pained.

O, THE TEARS THAT POUR FORTH, ENDLESS.

it really sucks that army has taken away my life, my freedom, my hair but not my fats [any slimming down should be rightfully attributed to my own jogging and working out these days, kthx], and on top of that i got this horrible scar on my face which may never heal completely. yes, so my face has the consistency of the surface of the moon but that doesn’t mean no one’s going to notice an extra crater especially when it’s the size of a fifty-cent coin. a pink, raw fifty-cent coin.

i have recently purchased three penguin classics – midsummer night’s dream, pride and prejudice and heart of darkness – and am about to finish the first. call me slow or whatever but i never knew how good shakespeare was -_- though i must admit reading too many works written in that style and language will become rather painful. jeffree says pride and prejudice is a v hated lit text so i guess i’ll be doing heart of darkness next.

class outing on monday! they’re planning to watch 300 which i’ve already seen, argh.
i need to watch letters from iwo jima!
i’m in high spirits though i have absolutely no idea why o.o

anima

and each is the other’s inferior fourth function.

my overly potent medicine is more debilitating than my illness was, but because my platoon sergeant is a man of great compassion and mercy and kindness he has decreed that i need not return to the cursed island (on which some people are enlisting today) to endorse my two-day medical certificate and hence will not need to take part in the make-up session of 24km route march so there is no real problem except that i probably won’t be able enjoy block leave properly.
i love long sentences.

yesterday i visited seven outlets of royal sporting house and called up all those outside of range, all just to find this elusive pair of shoes that isn’t even that stunning, and i’m not really sure why. in the end i went to queensway shopping centre and when even they did not have it i knew my never-ending quest had come to an ignominious end.

and it would have looked so perfect with my green-black-white polo from crocodile, too.
now all that i’m hanging on to is the hope that something better will come along.

aloha.

the reason why i signed up for A Word A Day from merriam-webster dot com was to improve the range of my vocabulary and my pathetic command of the English language so forgive me if i feel only ever so slightly insulted when they give me ‘abstain’ -.-

POP must have been the most anticlimactic thing since, i don’t know, FF13?

so i’ll be a civilian for a while. uncertainty lies ahead, and i haven’t got the time to worry about it.

‘… it also means goodbye.’

why do stars fall down from the sky;

re: joys
stef: i am shitting!
wee: *is silent*
stef: you are ignoring me
stef: )):
wee: er.
wee: thought you went off to shit
stef: the joys of a laptop.

i can’t believe i waited so long but now you’re finally gone (hopefully) for good.
it wasn’t that hard; just a few buttons, a few keys.
please don’t come back.

goodbye to you.

Overseas Courier Service

ahaha the van was parked at my void deck.

my sectionmate’s dad gave us all a lift home and i didn’t actually expect to survive the journey with him weaving in and out among other cars at 120km/h (y)

… what exactly are the odds of me making dentistry@nus when they’re only taking forty students?

i was thinking of applying to SMU but apparently they need SAT I scores or something so it’s KTHXBAI to me !